Apologies in advance if this post starts to lose cohesion. I've already started drinking to celebrate the one-year anniversary of the day I finally stood up for myself and told CE-Rap to fuck off. It didn't happen immediately, but July 13th was the day we had our final confrontation and I put into motion the process of forcibly extracting that mooching, sociopathic douchebag from my life and home.
I'm enjoying a pizza, having a few drinks, and writing a news post. So far, so good.
I've had a year to process that entire period of my life and I can't say that the rage has abated. Before I met and lived with the dude, I had never experienced depression. Not one day in my life. Now, post-Rap, that's a daily struggle. I have a much harder time bringing myself back to the animating table since he poisoned it for me with his controlling, manipulative, self-serving bullshit. That's not some shit you just forgive and move on from. It drills in deep and it corrupts everything. I can still animate like crazy and enjoy it, but CE-Rap took something from me that I so far have had limited success recovering. Those scars run deep.
I have no idea where he is or what he's doing. I like to think that he took a wrong turn on a mountain road somewhere on the way back to New York and got mauled to death by a family of bobcats, but that's probably just wishful thinking. More likely, he just found some other sucker to mooch off of and is currently putting them through mental and emotional upheaval for his own benefit (as sociopaths are wont to do).
That said, I occassionally check his DeviantArt page for signs of life. Mostly because the moment I catch the faintest whiff of him online I'm going to pulverize whatever remains of his tattered, beshitted, fucking reputation. He's probably not stupid enough to ever use that name again, but I remain ever watchful. Woe be to the poor bastard who shows up bearing a similar artistic style.
Fire and fury. Blood and death. My entire, ENTIRE force of hate shall descend upon him. One year, two years, fifty years, doesn't matter. The name "CE-Rap" is forever fucked. If he ever comes back, I will find him, I will destroy him, and I will give his broken corpse the proper public assfucking that he so thoroughly deserves.
You're fucking done, Carl. Done.
My personal guarantee.
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On a less fire-and-brimstone note, I'm almost finished with VG Exiles Episode 4. I've got all the story sets ready to go and I'm just waiting for the voiceover crew to get their lines back to me. Once I get those, it might be a quick as a couple of weeks before I have a working prototype. Story builds way quicker than fight choreo, even with custom spriting.
I used to rely on artists to deliver the complicated story stuff, but now I have the sprite editing skills I need to do it all myself. It may not be quite as pretty, but it'll get the job done. Full lip-synching, full custom motions, everything. I can do it all now. All by myself.
You guys will be able to see what the future holds when VGE4 eventually drops. It represents five years of developement packed into one single movie and I think it bodes well for the future of the series. I can do anything now. Absolutely anything.
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VGE4 takes place a few months after the events of VGE3 and you just might notice a few new faces wandering around Panoptichron...
VGE4 is coming soon. I can't promise any specific dates, but it's on the way.